feeling doesn’t always have to be the reality a feeling is a feeling. When I get stuck in the feeling it becomes my reality. Some people can shake off,but I can’t. It can take days hours or worst weeks. I know that feeling is just a feeling it’s not the reality. A lot of people say that I am shutting myself down that’s not what I want. What I want is someone to hold my hand and just say we going to fix this together. When you’re standing alone and no one will understand you doesn’t matter if someone say I’m there for you. it doesn’t matter how many times you said it.What’s matter. Yes when you show me that you actually stand there for me. It’s complicated for me to tell you about my borderline. Because I can’t even understand why I do as I do why I feel as I feel so how could youI have to read on Internet about my problems to actually understand why do as I do to myself. A person like me with Borderline can’t control my feelings, I always feel an emptiness in myself I constantly hate myself and I can see the positive in things I do I can only see the bad things I do. It doesn’t matter if I am in a room people who loves me. You’ve got if I go to the emotional plan in myself it doesn’t it doesn’t matter what you say , doesn’t matter if you say you love me. Because in the feeling. I feel like you have no reason to love me. When I come back to reality I know everything just was a feeling
